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_hexon I adore the vocal delivery on this. It gets a little silly, but I think it provides a much needed degree of separation from the thematic content. Favorite track: but I can't stay here.
hoodiehellraiser
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hoodiehellraiser I spent the better part of the past 2 years rotting in the residential treatment center industry. Slowly becoming more numb and distant from myself. It felt like it had been forever since I had really cried. A close friend of mine introduced me to this band a few months ago and I have been enjoying them a lot. But last night, this album just broke me out of nowhere. I melted. I did not think such a thing could be done for me. Thank you. Favorite track: ghost legs.
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vinylstew what a profoundly creative and beautiful album. an emotional rollercoaster from front to back - easily one of the greatest albums of all time. i hope we get to see nouns again soon. Favorite track: I still want to make you proud.
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1.
fourteen 04:24
" I was raped at fourteen and I'm not using this as another tragedy to make my art more appealing or to make you pity me and bring you closer to "understanding" me but instead, as an encouragement for those that have faced any sort of trauma, no matter how small --don't be afraid to open it into discussion. but before you do, analyze your feelings regarding the past. If you bring it up what do you want people to see? do you want them to see a "victim" ? because you should never ever want to be the victim but instead, the hero show "them" that you've been through some sort of s h i t and that you don't need Anyone's pity because you've overcome that heartache and you're a good person you're the hero no matter how bad things have been show "them" that you're strong and that you can overcome more adversity and you can come out a role model and show t h e m that you're truly proud with the person you've become but first you must work and it's a difficult job but you must try your hardest to fill the holes in your heart with nothing but your self and use that pain that you have in your heart as a tool not so that people may understand you but so that you may understand people use this to help the world one person at a time and know you're no longer the victim instead you're the victor " — Olivia
2.
" when I failed out of college a huge weight was lifted from my chest through degrees of separation I found that degrees were separating us only serving the cause of labeling us most likely to be happy society told me how to be but I find I'm much happier being me I will never define myself or those around me, by the level of education under their belt because that's a boring fucking way to be a worthless spacious machine and the guilt at first killed me another fuck-up in the family but the pressure was too much —every panic attack every class every stare I wanted to take my father's pistol and say goodbye to my friends wanted to lose my head shaking until cold lost my dignity with every shake of the hand— I'm scared of what's ahead but I'd rather be afraid than continue to be dead " — J.D.
3.
soccer ball 01:53
" 'You were a fuck up when you were a kid. Don't you ever say a damn word about mine.' 'Nobody died and made you the king of the universe; who the fuck cares what you think?' while you were yelling at dad, I was thinking about how I was just like him; I chugged a bit of cough medicine, and found the time rift under my bed I scraped my knees falling in I hit my head against the pavement I landed in our driveway, and there at my face was a lonely soccerball I shrugged and walked a few miles to my old school's baseball field, and there was a kid there that looked just like me he was sucking on sunflower seeds, and he didn't look too happy, he says to me: 'all my friends are taller than me, and everything I feel is low' " — Jackson
4.
fox wound 02:52
" I want to pull me up and lick my wounds with my old sandpaper tongue and I need to try to stop lying need to rip my throat out, and shove it back again so i can swallow my acid spit and breathe in my words, my thoughts and reason the reasons why I'm such a fucking face in the bushes and all these times I never told my mother, that I want to die, that I've wanted to cry my whole fucking life and all these times I never told my father, that I was made a pretty girl, but shit got fucked somewhere down the line I'm trying so hard to be someone I can love but it's so difficult when I'm stuck making others happy, but I still feel selfish sometimes I just need to place my temple on the asphalt and slow my breathing til it stops listening to the purr of cars like a fox in roadkill " — J.D.
5.
closer 02:19
" took my father's rifle and shot up my school he said he never saw it coming but everyone knew and now all those kids are dead and I'm no longer here but in the grand scheme of things it was just fine it was just fine " — Oliver
6.
wreck 03:46
" I hate everyone I love for keeping me anchored to this earth it's in all their god damned support that I can't leave behind a happy corpse with a smile on my face and a hole in my chest 'cause there was a hole in my heart that no one could fix father asks 'why' but please I don't know why mother keeps crying she can't let me go talk going around about being institutionalized cringing in my mind about the thought of being exorcised there's a demon in my brain and he's eating all my joy he's the same spawn of satan that made me the boy I am I am I am I am I am I am I am I am I am I am such a fucking wreck and I'm sort of scared I'm 19 years old already dead-set on being alone so give me my klonopin and leave me alone or god come about and let me leave home 'cause I hate myself for being self-involved and I love myself for being better than all with my nose in the air I can truly say you would miss me too much if I were gone " — Jackson
7.
ghost legs 03:08
" underneath the table little ghost legs stick out worn out from hide and seek from being weak from the ceiling my legs fall down worn out from all the running from being stepping on sunflower seeds at the carnival dangling from swing-sets in the schoolyard tapping under a desk filled with poetic bullshit squeaking in halls after the rain so restless now let me rest closer still closer still narcissistic in my self-loathing little ghost legs, run on home " — J.D.
8.
" if you're the same as you were last year then what have you done to grow and if there's no dirt under your nails you're digging yourself a hole you may scrape your knees climbing on to the roof but once you see the view you'll know the pain was worth it " — Olivia
9.
ski mask 03:07
" I'm looking for a reason one that will keep me here this time it's this damned season I pray for harmony here this time I'm nervous in the season I've got to show everyone who I am no one said it would be easy to be a pseudolamb inside a man so, shoot me down I pray for harmony in sight of god so, shoot me down I'm forgetting my place again at best I'm pretentious tangents in my mind are easier to find at best I'm not quiet the best of my words fall short before they lie you won't understand at best I'm optimistic I don't hate this world one bit I just hate being in it I just want to be kind but I'm angry in every way I am the devil and the deep blue sea and I take myself too seriously " — J.D.
10.
daydream 04:14
" in my head, I killed you all and you all begged me and for once, I felt powerful in my head, they accepted me said I wasn't crazy and for once, I felt alright in my head, I killed my all and you all mourned me and for once, I felt at peace in my head, they knew me said I was their friend and for once, I felt like living I felt like living " — Oliver
11.
" infected youth grow spokesmen of gray she loved him so and he left he said he wished her to die and she cried closer, still to whatever may come of heartbreak then she found her self self sea sick lost in an ocean without her pharmacy fisherman and she found it was too hard to stand up on her own she wished she could die never mind the growing weight in what she can't stomach left in the womb all alone she lost that baby on her own she just laid still left in the womb all alone she lost that baby on her own she became still after that she never felt right she just laid still still never told anyone about the child she just stayed still still she told me and I cried, still and I died, I died a small bit I died and now I think about it all the time would it be better would it be nicer than me I hope that I'm not right I can't face that kind of life shadowed by someone never alive but how could she love me after her heart was broken in two how could she be proud after her heart was taken from her I wonder about my sibling if a heaven has a place for her but god you work so strangely you take smiles so quickly so quietly a blade can cut so quickly but my legs won't die so quietly i don't want to keep going I've got to keep going if not for my mother, then for the one we've lost still, a better world a nicer world how can I redeem myself for my failure I'll never know her she was never here I am failing to live on for myself I'm sorry I love you I'm sorry I didn't say it enough you could've asked why I am alive why am I alive " — J.D.
12.
" walking down the aisle tears fill no eyes it's a beautiful day a glorious way to survive cars follow me are you in one of them cars follow best suit in line for the fun of it it's a gas lift up my limp wrist place your warmth in mine kiss my frothing mouth wait for help to arrive declare me lost before found couldn't stand to see you cry mother, I tried my hardest it was difficult not to die " — Hunter I'm sorry.

about

On Being Nineteen:

"Nineteen's a selfish age and finds one's cares tightly circumscribed..."

"...But I still think that's a pretty fine age. Maybe the best age. You can rock and roll all night, but when the music goes out and the beer wears off, you're able to think. And dream big dreams. The mean Patrol Boy cuts you down to size eventually, and if you start out small, why, there's almost nothing left but the cuffs of your pants when he's done with you."

—Stephen King

'still' was recorded from April 10th, 2013 to February 19th in various bedrooms, dens, practice spaces, sheds and living rooms, on floors, coffee tables, and some really odd things to prop a computer on (chess board briefcases book castles etc). It's a relief that it's done. It could be better, and hopefully I will find new production techniques to utilize on my next full-length. Unfortunately rent and food are takin’ all the moneeeey. — hunter

Thank yous: Kyle, Peepaw, Jono, Joey, DJ, Zach, Frank, Connor, Jase, Laura, Trey, Taylor, Rachel, Tyrus, Steven, Richard, Elgin, Tyler, Michael, Maddie, Kit, Matthew, Jake, Gary, Natalie, Schwinn, and Dustin.

Sincerely,

I miss these days.

credits

released February 19, 2014

composition, midi, guitar, drums, vocals, bass, banjo by hunter

additional vocals by Elgin on tracks 2, 6, 8
additional percussion by Tyler on track 6

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